I blinked. I blinked again. I squinted. I strained to see, but what I could see looked more like an impressionist’s rendering of my bedroom than what I knew it to be. Everything was hazed and bleary.
I made my way downstairs, wondering if it was finally time to break down and get the bi-focals. I sipped my coffee, continuing to squint while I watched the news. Right about the time the caffeine kicked in, I took off my glasses to rub my eyes in a last ditch attempt to save my vanity from death by- bifocal… suddenly everything was clear.
I looked at my glasses… they were smeared and smudged from tiny fingers… apparently my 6 year old “helper” had brought them upstairs. I took them to the kitchen and carefully cleaned the lenses. I slipped them back on. Everything became clear and sharp. I could see.
I settled onto the couch to continue my Lenten journey- today’s direction was -simple. “Pray for a pure heart. Read: Matthew 5:8” But I wondered at it’s meaning.
Purity is a word our culture seems to save for marketing and sexual abstinence. It isn’t a word often used outside of those contexts. What does purity meant in this context? I took a few minutes to look it up. The commentary mentions Psalm 73 for further study.
Between the commentaries and the scripture here is what I’ve discovered:
1) To be pure in heart gives one the ability to see God.
2) To be pure in heart means to rely on Him alone.
3) To be pure in heart means to be without blemish or sin.
These are things I desire.. but things I can’t accomplish. I walk through my days with eyes glazed by sin and distracted by things that I think I can rely on outside of God… they smear my sight like the fingerprints on my eye-glass lenses. Even when I recognize them for what they are.. I can do little to clear them from my vision. I squint and blink, trying to see clearly, it doesn’t work.
I try to clear them with what I have, my own dirty fingers.. I smear and haze them all the more. I can’t use something dirty to clear something.. I need something clean- pure. I need God’s help.
Today- I’m praying for a pure heart.. one that can see God.. one that has embraced His power to cleanse and clear- the only power that can… and I’m praying to see God… how amazing would that be?
I’m taking time to finish a chemo cap for my mom’s friend today.. while I knit, I’ll be meditating on God’s purity and will be praying that God would cleanse and purify my heart..I wonder what I’ll see with clear vision? I’ll also be praying that he would cleanse her body of sickness…
I can’t wait to see where this journey takes me tomorrow…